Another one bites the dust

Well! Another week down. I actually do not have much to say about this week. I guess it just was not very out of the ordinary. It had its ups, and its downs, its spiritual moments...and times when I ruined the spirit. I guess I will share this experience with you.

 

It goes back to sunday a week ago. Our district leader was in a meeting with our branch president. He finishes the meeting and comes back in our class, and tells us that the branch president wanted to meet with whoever was teaching the following week. (sunday two days ago) Well! I had taught the very first sunday here, so my hand was staying down....everyone else decided to keep their hands down too. Elder Kauvaka said come on! Someone, hurry, the president is waiting for you. Still, no one. So! I stood up and volunteered for kasama ko and I to teach. We walk in and everyone from the other districts in our zone that were teaching the following week was also in there. He just wanted to give us some pointers on what we could do to have a fantastic lesson. The topic was faith.

Sunday came around and kasama ko and I spent almost four hours studying together and preparing. We had what we felt was going to be an amazing lesson planned. About two hours before we were supposed to teach Elder Kauvaka told us that the guy over our Branch president, President Jenkins was going to be sitting in on it...oh snap! Now the pressure was on. Well, class starts and president Jenkins wanted to know what our district goals were. We explained them to him and he tore it apart. I guess they were not good goals because, "they could not be measured." Wow! Our mga guru (teachers) loved our goals. Well, I was already kinda annoyed with this old man, and then we started our lesson..we said one line and he took over. I sat there at the front of the room feeling like a fool. Who does this guy think he is? I spent all morning preparing. We ended up listening to him teach about faith in christ and what that really is, what it really means, on a deeper level. I was annoyed, so the whole time I answered his questions with a haha I actually AM smart attitude. Yeah, I was totally being cocky, and a bit immature. At the end of the meeting he asked kasama ko to bear his testimony...The whole class was crying, everyone except for me. President Jenkins left and everyone was talking about how spiritual it was, and how they learnded so much.

 

I sat there trying to figure out why it was that I did not have such a great experience. And then it hit me. I let my pride get in the way. I was not acting like the savior, i was not being humble. I missed out on one incredible, very spiritual, testimony building opportunity, all because this man, who has been around a lot longer than me, and knows far more about the gospel, decided to follow the spirit and teach us all something that we needed to hear. I was in a bad mood. I was so upset with myself. How could I be so stubborn and stupid?

 

kasama ko decided to help me out. He sat me down and asked me what was going on. Why was I in such a bad mood? So I explained all of this to him. He turned it on me and helped me realize that I learned something far more important. He helped me realize that this had all happened for a reason, that the Lord needed to humble me, and it was much better here than out in the field. I swore to myself at that moment that I will not let my pride get in the way again. Never again will I miss out on an opportunity to feel the spirit because I myself, was not following the spirit. I love kasama ko. He helped me realize my problem, and turn this whole experience into a positive one.

 

Well, pamilya! It sounds like the family reunion was fun, let Jeff know that he is in my prayers. I also want to thank all of you for the prayers, and for the fasting. I am not worrying about the language anymore. I am doing the best that i can, and the Lord will take care of the rest. He will bless me to know this language when the time is right. It is coming, I am able to say more and more every single day.

 

Mahal ko kayo. Ang Diyos ang ating, ama sa langit. Alam ko po na tagapagligtas si Jesucristo. Alam ko po na buhay si manunubos ko. Alam ko po na totoo ang simbahan ni Jesucristo ang mga banal sa mga huling araw. Nagpapasalamat po ako para sa pagbabayad-sala ni Jesucristo. Alam ko po na mahal po tayo ng Diyos. Alam ko po na salita ng Diyos, ang aklat ni Mormon. Sa pangalan ni Jesucristo, Amen.

 

I love you all. God is our heavenly father. I know that Jesus Christ is my Savior. I know that my redeemer lives. I know the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints is true. I am grateful for the atonement of Jesus Christ. I know God is loving. I know that the book of Mormon is the word of god. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.